[The written parts stop appearing. The kid is too focused in talking now.]
I did but... It was different. I was alone and then I was brought to Heavens. In that experiment mama and papa had wanted me, I was always with them. But Konzen was told to take care of me...
[He doesn't want to finish that sentence. Konzen hadn't wanted him to be there, or rather he hadn't had any preference. Even if he doesn't doubt now that Konzen wants to take care of him and all, the start can't be denied.]
In the experiment no one talked about punishing me for my eyes. And no one was sad because of my fault, Nataku didn't have to hurt himself. And I didn't cause trouble for anyone. Even now people want to leave this world, but I don't want to, I want to be here but no one wants me to. Konzen and Ken-niichan and Ten-chan wanted me here, they wanted to come... But only one is here and...
[It's a bit different. But that's something else he doesn't want to finish saying or thinking.]
If forced bonds are meaningless... Doesn't that mean every bond I have is meaningless? Konzen was told to take care of me even if he protested. I was taken to Heavens even if no one wanted me there. Ucchan and Ryoga-nii have taken care of me because I was left alone...
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Date: Sunday, 15 January 2012 07:49 pm (UTC)I did but... It was different. I was alone and then I was brought to Heavens. In that experiment mama and papa had wanted me, I was always with them. But Konzen was told to take care of me...
[He doesn't want to finish that sentence. Konzen hadn't wanted him to be there, or rather he hadn't had any preference. Even if he doesn't doubt now that Konzen wants to take care of him and all, the start can't be denied.]
In the experiment no one talked about punishing me for my eyes. And no one was sad because of my fault, Nataku didn't have to hurt himself. And I didn't cause trouble for anyone. Even now people want to leave this world, but I don't want to, I want to be here but no one wants me to. Konzen and Ken-niichan and Ten-chan wanted me here, they wanted to come... But only one is here and...
[It's a bit different. But that's something else he doesn't want to finish saying or thinking.]
If forced bonds are meaningless... Doesn't that mean every bond I have is meaningless? Konzen was told to take care of me even if he protested. I was taken to Heavens even if no one wanted me there. Ucchan and Ryoga-nii have taken care of me because I was left alone...
[Aren't all those bonds forced as well?]